We're not in LA N-E-More XII

     My phone is fixed! It was broke for about two weeks, I kinda broke it myself out of frustration & it was right before Christmas. So that meant no Christmas, New years or any Holiday pics. I was a little sad at first that I couldn't post on social media but after a while I found peace in enjoying activities & not worrying about pictures or footage. I visited my son for Christmas in Upstate NY for two days, Then I went to visit my God mom for a couple days dropped her off some gifts. I went to visit my God children & my God granddaughter that was fun. My God grand daughter is two years old and my God daughter & God son asked her if she wanted to sing head shoulders, knees & toes. She said no but they decided to sing it anyway to see if she would get into it. She didn't & after they finished the song all enthusiastically this little girl with her little baby voice said " Nobody asked for all that!" My husband & I busted out laughing & baby girl looked pleased with herself & the God children was just sitting there salty, it was an epic moment. 

    Then my mother's 60th birthday kicked off, my mom & I have come far in our healing process in the last 10 years she's a sweet lady & at her party I met my 17yr old daughter for the first time in years I haven't seen since she was 6.  My mom had met her too for the very first time a couple months before. That's a whole other story & I'm telling it in my upcoming book.  I also spent some time with my best friend, I really enjoy time spent with her she's an energy that I need in my life. My brother came home from prison after being away for 16 years earlier this year. I was able to see him & spend his 1st New Years home with him that was nice. We are currently staying in Burlington NJ with my husbands family. To think I had an anxiety attack on the drive coming back to Philadelphia. I mean there was a lot of stuff to face & it's just the beginning. 

    To keep some money flowing we've been doing Uber Eats until we go back to the farm. My favorite person in my family & I are connecting & disconnecting at the same time. I don't know what the energy is there, but it's weird. My husband & I also partied with my children's father's family for his sister's & brothers's birthday. My children's father is banned from his own family for being dumb. We were on the East coast for a week & there were two snow storms & it was bone chillingly cold. The Uber Eats wasn't working out like I expected. I had no energy or motivation to do anything. I just wanted to go back to LA & get my life together because in Philadelphia I am homeless, broke, frantic, stressed, sad, low energy & unmotivated. At least in LA i'm homeless, broke but motivated with high energy.  Just when I felt like I couldn't take it anymore my God mom died very suddenly & unexpectedly. That was it for me I was out, my emotions were already all over the place anyway. I had a sleep over with my daughter & her bestfriend at my mom's, which turned out well but what happened after that was another whole separate story. I'll get around to telling that to cuz chile boo! Long post short I'm back in LA broke, homeless, but with high energy & hella motivation my husband & I are separated I would say for obvious reasons but I haven't made the reasons obvious, oh but I will if your wondering. 

Thanks for letting me share!   

-Photo by Jodie Spartz