Have u ever felt like u messed up ur life 2 the point that u would like 2 just disappear or just die? I feel like that currently every day, but oddly enough my story is one of resilience, endurance, BI Polar, PTSD, & the courage to overcome! It's taking a lot out of me to even write this. It's definitely going to be a mentally draining process & this is the most important story I will probably ever write. None of this is made up, not based on a true story, is a true story. With this particular story there is only one side MINE! I don't say that in anger I say that in truth.     I had one dream in life and that was to have a family. A family that was mine & it was majorly important that it stayed together. I grew up being molested like most little girls from my understanding, of course I thought this guy was my dad. I found out he was only my brothers dad & that I had a different dad when I was 11. It's crazy because that's when I remember having my