90 Day Go Hard (THE REFLECTION) The Conclusion ( LA Story)

As I sit here & think about week 11 & 12, I'm trying 2 figure out why I freaked out the way I did. Do I really need the mental health meds, if I'm going to be living like a vagabond or is it dumb shit that makes me crazy? Sometimes things get to be too much. We ended up leaving Hubby's friends house & moving into a hotel in DTLA.

It was & has been impossible to save for a security deposit simply because his friend wanted us to pay $1,200 per month for his less than livable garage, I wasn't about to do that and moving from hotels to airbnb's weren't helping to save money either. In the end I think I panicked because I haven't been unsure of where I was going to sleep in over 5 years at that point. It was a scary feeling & to know that neither one of us had any funds or anyone we could call, plus I had to work and I got off at 10:30 at night & not knowing where I was going in my head was terrifying.

I mentally folded & ended up spending 8 days in Southern California Hospital on the Psych ward. I'll talk about that experience in another post. Living day to day & not knowing where you're going to sleep & not having any money or support is a terrible feeling. I couldn't do one day of it without being in a complete anxiety stricken panic, I couldn't even go to work!

My heart goes out to people in that predicament & I hope they find the resources to help change their lives.

I used to make scrap books to keep up with my life, because I didn't want 2 forget anything lol imagine that!

-Photo by, Jodie Spartz

Comments

What's your question? Allow me to answer Chapter 1

Welcome to ask Jodie a blog that will change and apply healing in your life? Do you have a question you're scared to ask? Do you feel embarrassed when speaking with others? Or do you just prefer no-one knows your business? What ever the case allow Jodie to be of assistance. Hi I'm Ms. Jodie Spartz and I'm here to care for you especially if you feel no-one else does. Drop me your questions and I will answer them accordingly and post stories of how others were successful in their self healing journey. -Original Stone Carving by, Rebelucien

We're not in LA N-E-More XII

My phone is fixed! It was broke for about two weeks, I kinda broke it myself out of frustration & it was right before Christmas. So that meant no Christmas, New years or any Holiday pics. I was a little sad at first that I couldn't post on social media but after a while I found peace in enjoying activities & not worrying about pictures or footage. I visited my son for Christmas in Upstate NY for two days, Then I went to visit my God mom for a couple days dropped her off some gifts. I went to visit my God children & my God granddaughter that was fun. My God grand daughter is two years old and my God daughter & God son asked her if she wanted to sing head shoulders, knees & toes. She said no but they decided to sing it anyway to see if she would get into it. She didn't & after they finished the song all enthusiastically this little girl with her little baby voice said " Nobody asked for all that!" My husband & I busted out laughing ...

Surviving LA part II

As the LA housing search continues... We found ourselves on the streets & out of money for a couple weeks due to the Beverly Hills swindle & the cost of staying in hotels. On day one on the streets, we both worked a night shift and spent the day sleeping in our storage unit, Day 2 was the Santa Monica/Venice beach night, sleeping in our tent & fighting a serious wind till the morning. On day 3 we fought with the wind again more severe in our tent at the Venice Graffiti walls on the beach & lost. We dramatically packed up fighting the wind the whole way & ended up camping not too far away in Penmar park. The good thing about this was that they had a bathroom available. The hauk was out too that night it was so cold, I thought I was gonna die from hypothermia. I don't even know how I made it through the night. All I know is that I was not prepared for this! The universe carried me into day 4 & we both again worke...

Search This Blog