Here are the list of possibilities I made. Let me state, if I didn't that the reason I made this list is because I was losing faith in my Husband and I panicked. I thought to myself, "omg I messed up again, I don't need this i'm out!" I now know this was more PTSD than myself talking because I didn't even give the man a chance. This was the first time we even had a "real" problem together. N-E-ways here's Jodie's panic list. WWOOF I found this organization called Worldwide Opportunities on Organic Farms. In short it's a program you can join and go away for N-E-where from a week to a year around the world volunteering 2 help people on their farm. It's basically free, the host pays for your room & board it's an exchange for your work.  I found out that California has a lot of shared housing as well that I could afford on my own & I could focus 100% on going back 2 school & finishing my degree or going back to bartendi

       In journaling the 90 day go hard workout I realized I should follow-up with a reflection, because there was a lot going on in that 90 days and I think it's interesting to see what developed. The idea for journaling the 90 days came from the fact that for one reason or another we weren't consistent the first time we tried. This being the second time we tried I wanted to keep up with it to see what the reason was for the lost of focus.  Week 1: The beginning of the journey we were supposed 2 go hard working out for 90 days. I really don't even want to tell you how we stayed consistent for a week😒 During week 2 the best way I can explain what happened is to say that we allowed ourselves to be emotionally side tracked, for two entirely different reasons. We were not on the same page at all, I am going to blame the fact that we didn't plan out our move to California. My mental health just caused us to run away from Philadelphia, to put it lightly because the walls we